I’m not watching the news before bed anymore. In fact, I may just stop watching the news completely. I spent the night sort of tossing and turning, half-imagining I heard the evacuation siren. Things look better in the morning as they always do, but this is a scary time to be in Japan. It sounds like a bad disaster movie- earthquake causes tsunami, which causes nuclear power plant failure.
Twice. Three times, plus a fire at another reactor.
Nothing new has happened overnight, according to NHK, Japan’s national broadcaster. The fuel rods in the #2 reactor at Fukushima Dai Ichi are fully exposed, meaning the cool-down attempts have failed. They’re still saying it won’t leak any radiation, but who knows? Update: Reactor #2 had an explosion on Tuesday afternoon. Another reactor has caught fire. The government said that “levels of radiation which could possibly be dangerous to human health are probably being emitted, with more expected.”
The only thing I can do is keep my windows closed. Watching the live feed of the plant exploding will not do anything for my nerves. Most people I know are glued to the TV but it’s just making me feel worse. People here are quite calm on the surface- even right after the earthquake they just started walking home in a resolute manner with their company-issued helmets on, but I think they’re deeply unnerved. It’s hard to tell. Nobody is talking, especially not to the foreigner.
I’m not fearing imminent nuclear death or anything. I have a deep mistrust of the Japanese government and the nuclear power plant operators. I do believe they would withhold vital news if it was bad enough to cause a panic. I don’t think there’s anything like that going on right now, but I don’t believe they’d be transparent if there was really bad news. That’s the worrisome part. I mean, in Japan, the doctor won’t always tell you if you have cancer. Seriously. Such a thing would be unthinkable in the West, but in Japan, doctors sometimes won’t tell you vital things about your own health if they think it will upset you too much. That’s not just a wacky rumor about Japan, it is true. It’s that mindset of hiding the upsetting truth that’s making me wonder about everything that’s happening.
So…I’m going to paint some nails. Yup. It’s ridiculous in a way, but in another, it’s good to take my mind off everything. I’m going to be donating all profits from my Etsy shop to the tsunami relief as soon as I find a good trustworthy cause to donate to. I know it would be much more efficient to donate the money directly, of course, but at least this way provides a little distraction for me!